Shades of Mind http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com This is a outlet to my thoughts, my different moods in my own way Wed, 09 May 2012 03:48:34 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 Conscientious thoughts http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2012/05/08/conscientious-thoughts/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2012/05/08/conscientious-thoughts/#comments Wed, 09 May 2012 03:48:34 +0000 jealous.guardian http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/?p=610 My conscience is the costliest investment I made. I was happiest before I developed it.

Is there a return on investment in developing a conscience?

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2012/05/08/conscientious-thoughts/feed/ 0 Proving the love thoughts http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2012/01/14/proving-the-love-thoughts/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2012/01/14/proving-the-love-thoughts/#comments Sat, 14 Jan 2012 18:26:44 +0000 jealous.guardian http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/?p=584 Show me the proof of love …

I can no more deny
The arguments of my minds eye
Imagine the sunk costs, yes that’s why
I wish you good bye

Why don’t you show me the proof of love

kiss me again with that burning desire
stand with me again and fight
hold me with the same fire
come teach me again how to smile

can you show me the proof of love?

Tell me I am the one in your dreams
Tell me you miss me there as you sleep
Tell me there is still attraction
Tell me you made me promises that you wish to keep

 

Please just show me the proof of love

walk with me again as if you want to
hold my hands and look into my eyes
tell me once again I am all you ever wanted to
Lets swear again this love never dies

 

yeah thats right, I need to see the proof of love.

Yes I will surely die
after saying good bye
yes to me thats acceptable,
’cause something is missing from this fable …

…the proof of love.

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2012/01/14/proving-the-love-thoughts/feed/ 0 Jealous Thoughts – Glorifying jealosy! http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/jealous-thoughts-glorifying-jealosy/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/jealous-thoughts-glorifying-jealosy/#comments Fri, 30 Dec 2011 15:48:09 +0000 jealous.guardian http://tests1.wordpress.com/?p=39 Labelled jealous are you? Wont find much solace here … ah aright .. u might! nothing like providing logic on the contrary!

So, Why are some labelled jealous? why are the ones who stop the loved one from commiting an innocent mistake, titled with the “crown” of jealousy. Whats wrong in letting someone, a loved one know that there is something wrong that they are unable to see.

Pity is to be offered to those who cant see that there is a moral responsibility attached along with our love. A mortal danger we live in, the danger we feel is not our death, nor of a harm that can come to us. We are thinking about you, about keeping you safe, safe from the things we have seen and witnessed. Things that are possible. Keeping you safe from your friends which dun have noble thoughts, and we can feel it. We want to keep you safe for us. Who need you beyond you can ever think of. Your presence in our life is like oxygen for lungs.

But then isnt everyone entitled to his own space?

If One is jealous to want to show where u are wrong, If One is jealous to feel a moral responsibility to protect you, if One is wrong in feeling bad seeing those good friends of urs want u (whether u notice it or not!), If One is jealous when i feel ur warmth toward them and coldness towards me. Then either He doesn’t understand love or you dont!
His expressions may have been wrong, but my intensions protective, just like ur expressions were of friendship and their of love, but ur intensions innocent.

If He is jealous in love, u ought to provide him security, like he did when u were. But if you need more than one heads to adore you, then do tell him you have lost the will to mend it! With ur attitude towards him you have already rendered him incapable of love …. just jealos!

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/jealous-thoughts-glorifying-jealosy/feed/ 0 Married Thoughts – The Divorce http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/married-thoughts-the-divorce/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/married-thoughts-the-divorce/#comments Fri, 30 Dec 2011 15:44:10 +0000 jealous.guardian http://tests1.wordpress.com/?p=78 Love is like a fire, it dies with the fuel. Hate is like air, present either in form of oxygen or posinous gas, always there – always.
We realized this, our love frizzled … we dunno when we dun realized. Their dint seem no explanation how why. The hate took over, it became the life support. Something we always wanted, something that didnt seem right but something we couldnt live without. Break ups dint help none. We came back together, we had never felt such a force to be together. To fight, to inflict pain, to destroy. But we were both free, free to go to move from it and feel bad later.
Then we realized, the want of destruction, we decided to tie the undying bond of hatred. We decided to marry and live in hate forever – something everlasting.

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/married-thoughts-the-divorce/feed/ 0 Comprehende Thoughts http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/comprehende-thoughts/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/comprehende-thoughts/#comments Fri, 30 Dec 2011 15:43:08 +0000 jealous.guardian http://tests1.wordpress.com/?p=102 I appreciate thy company …. miss it sometimes, but thou oughtest not be considered in my needs. For my wanton needs ensure my survival.

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/comprehende-thoughts/feed/ 0 Portrait http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/portrait/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/portrait/#comments Fri, 30 Dec 2011 15:42:50 +0000 jealous.guardian http://tests1.wordpress.com/?p=121 I write infront of whom i describe. Wouldnt that imply I create a portrait? A portrait of words, just like the strokes of a painter. The painter defines how the portrait looks, of what features to highlight, what characters to impart. Its dangerous!

Here I sit infront of my life. Or what I thought would be more than my life. I have been granted that wish yes … the wish to endure what I presumed fundamental to my life.

But why do I feel scared carving the portrait. Painters sometimes are afraid of the portraits they create. Is it because they are worried they would reveal too much of their soul via the strokes of that brush ….. too much of their character in someone else’s portrait. Yes, they are afraid. But is that the only reason …. isnt there more?. The fear of creating a hopeful spectacle depicting brilliance. Hope not for the one portrayed, but the portrayer! Why then am I not supposed to dwindle!. Hope can be like a ray of light ….. the ray which might be visible at the start of the never-ending dark tunnel …. its just a trick of the mirrors anyways!

The portrait would be like the dream that came true, with just the scenic detail and none of the meaning. The hope that could never have been a nightmare, proven just that. You try to move on, and become happy. The hopes clear, the doubts disappear …. but one look at the portrait and you are back …. only to witness how much darker it can get. Your temptation to follow your ultimate hope, acting as inertia against an alternate path!

So I choose not to ….. to avert its perpetuity. Its brilliance still stays in my mind, memories! huh!, I should overcome the inertia someday when they are washed … not with alcohol but time.

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/portrait/feed/ 0 Toughening Thoughts http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/toughening-thoughts/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/toughening-thoughts/#comments Fri, 30 Dec 2011 15:40:12 +0000 jealous.guardian http://tests1.wordpress.com/?p=147 When going gets tough for you, dont go to your girlfriend or if you dare, better take a precious gift.

]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/30/toughening-thoughts/feed/ 0 Waking up thoughts http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/12/waking-up-thoughts/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/12/12/waking-up-thoughts/#comments Mon, 12 Dec 2011 23:37:38 +0000 jealous.guardian http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/?p=325 I dont want to wake up again

Not to the ice in your eyes

Not to the boredom and lies

Just compromise ….

 

Sometimes I wanna write again

Some times I wanna cry again

Sometimes I wanna be alone again

Sometimes I wanna love

Sometimes ………………….

 

I aint smiling again

Not to the farcical laughter

Not to the hope of everafter

No No No … Not hereafter

 

Sometimes I wanna run away

Sometimes I wanna live again

Sometimes I wanna smile again

Sometimes I wanna be … just be

Sometimes …………………….

 

Dont come back again

Not to the absent passion

Not to the disinterest and addiction

No …. dont come back to me

 

Sometimes I wanna fly so high

Sometimes I wanna jump

Sometimes I wanna swim free

Sometimes I wanna play in the storm

 

But mostly I dont wanna wake up again …..

I dont wanna wake up again

No never wanna wakeup again

No No No No Never again

Never Never again

Never again

Never

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]]> http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/10/29/bore-thoughts/feed/ 0 Limiting thoughts http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/08/13/limiting-thoughts/ http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/2011/08/13/limiting-thoughts/#comments Sat, 13 Aug 2011 20:19:13 +0000 jealous.guardian http://shadesofmind.expressionsinfinitum.com/?p=314 I want to be a part of something special, something great. Life is just to trivial too limiting. Writing used to calm me down, stimulate me, but I think too fast to write – each thought more important than others. Writing isnt a great way to record my thoughts, its just a slow dump – a leak from a train moving at a very fast speed. Writing bores me now. But how do I record my thoughts then?

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