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Bore thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on October 29, 2011 with No Comments
in Not love, Quote

Boredom is worse than death.

Limiting thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on August 13, 2011 with No Comments
in Not love, Prose

I want to be a part of something special, something great. Life is just to trivial too limiting. Writing used to calm me down, stimulate me, but I think too fast to write – each thought more important than others. Writing isnt a great way to record my thoughts, its just a slow dump – a leak from a train moving at a very fast speed. Writing bores me now. But how do I record my thoughts then?

controlling thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on May 7, 2011 with No Comments
in Not love, Prose

Anything that controls me, my feelings, urges, choices and my actions is a detriment to my freedom in thought and in action. My hunger doesn’t fuel my freedom, it forces my hand to get something to eat. My condition causes me to never really relax. My brain is addicted to stimulation to the point that [...]

Judgemental thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on April 29, 2011 with 1 Comment
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Any room for judgment automatically cancels out possibility of anything absolute such as justice, right, wrong. All judgment can really hope to achieve is a crude approximation. Know this when you judge people.

Vile thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on April 28, 2011 with 1 Comment
in Not love, Quote

Human is a a vile being, it craves destruction for amusement. Without destruction, there can be no progress, no charity, no adrenaline and absolutely no domination. But human doesnt embrace the nature. The human life is a constant struggle to control these destructive tendencies and channel them to destroy “with discretion”. May be burst a [...]

Punishing thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on April 18, 2011 with 1 Comment
in Love, Not love, Prose, Prose

The creator was angry, furious and yet he wasnt sure if the punishment he had for the spirit was too strong. But forgiveness cannot be taken lightly. Here she comes now: “My Lord!, it was a terrible mistake! Have mercy” … she said, she was stricken with fear and her eyes were watery with sorrow. [...]

Triggering thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on April 17, 2011 with 1 Comment
in Not love, Prose

Triggers – what emotions does this word trigger in you? What do you instantly think of Gun ? War ? Database Triggers? Human physiology has triggers too – emotional and mental triggers. Its almost amazing how the triggers manipulate the body and brain. When a teenage boy sees a sensual woman – a trigger fires [...]

Destructive thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on April 11, 2011 with No Comments
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My destruction overtakes me, should I let it win? Can I do justice to rest of my life? Is there a justice possible? When the dreams turn nightmares, will they ever turn back? should I keep trying or give up? How long should I try? If the life’s lesson is “true happiness is a farce”, [...]

A winners Eulogy

Posted by jealous.guardian on December 9, 2010 with No Comments
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A Winners Eulogy: My dadaji – my grandfather. A lot of you may remember him as a fighter, a soldier of academia. But he wasn’t a just a fighter – NO , not just a fighter. There are various kinds of fighters – some mediocre and others great. Fighters can belong to any side – [...]

Honoring thoughts

Posted by jealous.guardian on November 16, 2010 with No Comments
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Those with fight with honor fight foolish. Fight is an action which must be done with only one intention : Win. Those who care about rules or honor end up loosing or dead. Everything is fair ….