Pitiful Thoughts – Get practical

What do you give them pity or hatred? People change, but yeah.. mostly towards weakness. They adapt and hug weakness after a brief period of bravery, or attempted bravery. All their principles, big thoughts , tremendous philosophies proving them just hipocrates. Calling themselves mature (less callous) and practical to whoever understands but doesnt agree with there change. For others they are matured automatically, because others either ignore the hypocricy or are too busy hero-worshipping.

Most brave people surely and steadily start liking what is easy. They start talking in terms of practical. In terms of possible. “I only did what was practical” they claim. Then comes the phase where they start lieing to the people around them. People who trust, adore or respect them and their principles, their capabilities. These brave people soon realize that they have slipped and start living a false life.

False life because, they know that they have stooped from the place they once held themselves “proud”. They know that the place is/was actually very prestigious. They also realize that with their lowered standards there is very little chance that they can uphold their position and other’s expectations. But they do love being the ideals of others. Others expect them to achieve what they had set their minds too. But its very difficult to get away from the temptation of “doing whats easy and practical”. In reality, practical generally amounts to the easy. Impractical may not be impossible but there is an aura of difficulty which seems reproachable to the people who have tasted the ease or have given up fighting.

They are in a dilemma, they love the prestige and still not wanna fight anymore. Not with the world, not even with the circumstances. Their mind certainly tells them off from indulging in hardships. So giving the name of the practical, they become scared of the fight and loose themselves, their self respect. They still deceivingly hold their previous principles, their pompous show offs of being superlative fighters. So they start lying to the people around. Those who believe in their lies pose no threat to them and their life is easier. They keep insisting on “Trust me” and go on well with life.

But when their lies are apparent to those less ignorant ones who can pick out a contradiction when they witness one, that is when their troubles start. Lies after lies are told and unfurled and another era of fight ensues. This time the fight is basically between the previous comrades – in -arms. But the fight is still easier than the earlier because this time they are fighting ones who will hurt them less. There is an emotional angle to the new born enemy.This angle which is their biggest weapon. Soon these wise people will either get out of their life “hurt and confused” or start living with (called adjusting in the mature terms, compromise is probably another word) the new “changed” person, with less respect than before, but because the love they couldnt free themselves from, and yet hurt and unhappy.

In both cases these wise people are the least of their worries since much harm cannot come from them. Anyways to those changed, the previous loved ones dont matter much, because as long as they have a team of people holding them at the superlative position, they dont care. They can sacrifice the love just for the sake of being hero-worshipped. Their priorities have changed from their purpose, their fight, their love and passion, to the encouraging (yet meaningless) side effects such as glorification and a team of admirers. They start depending on this false admiration to gain some self-respect.

They keep sinking low, hurling advices to the less experienced, as if they are the ones who have achieved the ultimate goal. Posing to have reached there’s and informing youngers how to follow them to their respective goals. The young get fooled by the show put up by these abhorable people and not realize that their ideals have fallen. Fallen to the level that they thrive on other’s false impression/idolization for being “someone” they are no more or may be even to “exist” as someone. Their self esteem no more the by product of their principals, their capabilities, their purpose, but false praise they see in the manners of the foolish.

They start avoiding those who are not taken by their deception, even those who were their biggest admirers, the people who loved them beyond themselves. I am not sure what can be the reason for that – their need of false praise to feel self satisfied and “existant” or the guilt of being caught “fallen” by the people/person who mattered (or matters) most.

They churn their happiness from the false respect received in return. While they dont deserve any of this respect and not even this happiness. They loathe themselves for being quitters and still enjoy the false pretence of being fighters. Initially, they are confused between practical and cowardice. Later they realize it was cowardice and its too late to fight back. They keep living in self-pity combined with self-sustaining false admiration they recive. The false praise, now, becomes life sustaining for them. Their basic instincts now push them to lie and live what is left of their ….er ….dignity(?).

I get angered at sight of such people, abound as they do … and more and more people are added to this list. However, sometimes i think do these weaklings, cowards even deserve my anger? Are they even worth that much energy! Hatred is a strong feeling .. for probably the strong opponents. I think they deserve pity the lowest form of feeling you can have for a person… .. yes pity at the most. However it would be great if they can be totally ignored but thats … er … Impractical.

Dilemmatic Thoughts

How can one let go of the dream one has long nurtured and worked for. But if one doesnt let go, the knowledge of the failure is frustrating. Especially so if the remnants of the dream, are still infront of him. His desires all same but the dream went awry. Isnt it much better to [...]