Ceasing thoughts

A curious mind can look forward to ceasing the flow of thoughts …. for now, for more and may be for eternity. But thats not same as suicide. Suicide doesnt serve a purpose, cessation of thoughts does. Only with the power of channelizing the thoughts, controling their direction, can a curious mind stay afloat otherwise the wild forest of intertwined thoughts will just blur the whole world.

For this reason, the urge to end it all is not about ending the life, but to cease the flow of thoughts. Like weeds, thoughts can be extremely damaging, a healthy ecosystem needs balanvee and balance needs channelization. When thoughts grow at a rate faster than children are born around the world, its difficult to maintain coherence. A sharp stop at the deluge brief as it may be, will help revitalize the brain. A healthy brain doesnt just think healthy thoughts, but a healthy brain may be far more equipped to handle the deluge of the weeds… the bad thoughts … the negative ones. The power of brain is not just in the amount of thoughts it can generate, the power of the brain is to channelize them into productive and get rid of the rest. Thats what sepearate a cohenrent brain from the brain of a mad man.

I just understood the importance of meditation. its not to supposed to help me stop the flow of thoughts, its supposed to give me the rsted mind to handle the flow more efficiently. Thats important.

Note: For those who contemplate suicide, arent you curious what life has for you next? It may not be great, it may not be positive, but then if you are already contemplating ending it, you have nothing to loose, why not gamble and snicker.

Frowning Thoughts

People claim that frowning takes more muscles than smiling. If you see me frowning, consider it as exercise.

Democratic thoughts

There is a fundamental problem in the way the democratic elections are made. The people who dont vote receive a lot of criticism for their inaction. The premise being that voting is not just a right, its a duty. I disagree … voting is NOT a duty … per democracy, “choosing a suitable candidate” should be the duty. If a voter doesnt agree with any of the candidates, the ballot never captures, their disapproval. There is no “I dont want any of the above” as a choice. If in the name of duty, you are asked to choose between the Devil and the Satan (letssay) … would it be wise to make a choice or pass?

The fundamental problem with democratic elections is that there is no attempt to record how many people didnt want any of the candidates and by virtue of that, the way democratic voting ballets are made undermine the democratic right of every citizen to let their choice known!

Color Blind thoughts

Passion fruit of color-blind perception

Writing thought

When there is nothing to write
When there is thoughts but no means in sight

Choicy Thoughts

The choices which we believe were made by us and us only are the ones that sting the most when they go bad.

Is it ok then to regret them? The instinct says NO, the human in me says yes. Only by realizing the bad choices, can one really make new better ones. Or can one? it is not about making choices. Depending on the years past since the bad choices are made, one may be just too chicken to make a harder choice. Even then, how can I trust myself to make better choices?

Didnt I make one, against all odds, against the whole world, against the norm and it blew up in my face. Can I trust myself to make more choices or just stay there mute, watching shriveling as I die a painful death in shackles. How do I know this is not the best thing that can ever happen to me. Do I dare to dream more?

Freedom is just a concept, an ideology which sounds good to hear about. When is man really free form his conceptions, beliefs, urges, prejudices, decisions, comforts?

The irony is although I may be free to make my own choices, I am not free enough to make none! Is that real freedom. It seems life is contrary to freedom, although I am free to make choices, but not all of them even if it concerns no one just me.

What then is freedom? It may seem like freedom is to life what good is to evil, existance of one is dependent on another.

Conflicting thoughts

What is it that makes you want more of something you cant forgive or forget. Heart is such a wuss and ofcorse brain – so sexually desperate. Adult life teaches us that desires are conflicting, dreams can be nightmares, nightmares can be lived. One thing which it doesnt teach us is to let go, get out and break the shackles. So what is life but a stockholm syndrome. Breaking free isnt easy, because shackles are everywhere, you break one, others spring up instantaneously.

Moving on is difficult, often important things are difficult, but if its only about things life would be easy.

Escaping thoughts

when sleep escapes me reading is the only sedative to keep me sane.

Coward thoughts

My eyes dwindle
happiness is fleeting
i compromise, i hold firm
its fleeting

My existence a burden
sheer pain to the loved
the black sun frowning down
life’s weakeness sudden.